I realized this week that I started The Fog Line just over a year ago. So much has changed since then. Since becoming pregnant nearly nine months ago, Nick and I have been dealing with two cases of cancer, multiple surgeries and doctor visits, two moves, an IRS audit (they wanted proof I went to school and thank goodness I did!), an OMI eviction and a bunch of other random WTF moments. It’s been a tough year with some shitty luck (or karma perhaps) but I think it’s also taught us that if we can be happy and still enjoy life while being bombarded by madness, then we’re in a good place. And of course the silver lining is that despite all the bad stuff, in just a couple weeks we’ll be experiencing one of -if not the-happiest moment(s) of our lives.
Speaking of which, last week I got some pretty rad news. In the last four weeks my placenta “moved” from about .7cm to nearly 4cm away from my cervix, so I no longer have placenta previa and I no longer need a c-section. Though I have to admit I was getting pretty used to the idea of not having to deliver naturally, I am very happy with the news and feel very lucky that my body corrected itself in such a short amount of time and that the baby & I are not in danger. It’s been a weird couple weeks since Nick and I were preparing for the baby to come next week as opposed to in 3-4 weeks.
If this last year has taught me anything it’s that I despite how much I may think I can control my life and my body, the only thing I can really control is my mind and my reaction to what goes on around me. It’s actually quite a freeing feeling, one that has brought me back to Taoism and the concept of wu wei, or “non-action”, which basically entails going with the flow. Probably a very important concept to live by when you have a child!
As I enter age 2 of The Fog Line, I want to say thank you to my readers and contributors. This has been a fun place to share and I’m looking forward to seeing what happens in the next year.